I don't know what it is about this town...it's like it drains all the life and happiness out of me. It's just so freaking lonely. Maybe it's because I spent five weeks being around people my age that I get along with and loved it. Now this place seems so much worse than it ever was before because I know what I'm missing. I'm tired of being on the verge of tears everyday I have to sit in this house; I'm tired of being the person with friends that don't call her to hang out EVER while other people get called all the freaking time.
What the hell is wrong with me? What's with this town and the people in it? It's like I'm a freaking alien that people are afraid to spend time with. I NEVER go anywhere with people...it's always my fucking parents.

I'm so tired of this....I'm tired of living like this, and if it doesn't change soon, I'll just be plain tired of living.